Today, she is much heavier, but also MUCH, much happier
Liza Golden-Bhojwani was consuming up to 500 calories a day at the peak of her career.
She was measuring 20 steamed edamame beans for dinner, working out intensively, and measuring her waistline before upcoming shows.
Modelling from age 17, Liza was used to criticism from clients who would request she fit into tiny clothing.
However, she was exhausted, hungry, and stressed all the time.
At certain breaking points, she started binge eating and gaining weight uncontrollably – receiving criticism not only privately but also publicly in which internet users would point out that her thighs looked “too chubby” in her Dolce & Gabbana show.
At some point, she decided to stop fighting her own body, and let her natural shape form take shape.
Her break from the high-fashion world led her to love her body more, stop obsessing over calories and workouts, and get her social life back.
Today, she is fuller, but mostly – full of self-love and happiness.
A little flashback Friday action for you. This caption will be long and won't fit, so if you'd like to read please find the rest in the comment section….The left side was me at the start of the peak of my career. My first proper fashion week where I was actually the size I needed to be. I was booking amazing shows that one never thinks they actually could, walking with girls who I once looked up to, it was a serious adrenaline rush…but after fainting one night in my apt whilst preparing one of my very low cal meals (I think it was 20 pieces of steamed edamame if I remember correctly), I called it quits with the diet and workout regime I was put on and decided I could do it on my own. I thought to myself, I can still be this thin, but I'll just eat a little more so I don't feel so horrible. Well, eating a little more turned into eating nearly a bag full of almonds, which then turned into eating full size meals, which then turned into a full blown binge. I was craving every single food you could imagine and I was giving in to every craving even though I knew this was such an important time in my career. I made it through NYFW okay, no one had noticed any weight gain, but by the time I had gotten the LFW I could see the pounds starting to show both in the mirror and on the measuring tape, but I kept quiet obviously not wanting to sabotage myself. I found myself going to the grocery store and picking up raw vegetables to try and make up for the near two week binge I had in NY, but I didn't see any weight coming off no matter how "healthy" I was eating and no matter how many workouts I fit in. MFW came and I knew I was bigger and by bigger I mean a 35.5in hip rather than the 34.5in hip I started with in NY, I played it cool and just pretended everything was normal. I did end up booking shows, Dolce & Gabbana being one of them. Which I afterwards received online criticism about my thighs looking fat…Anyways PFW came about, and I found it impossible to resist those chocolate croissants 🙊 I went on many a casting with one exclusive option being on my schedule, but after meeting the client I knew the reason for me not nailing the gig, my size…
April 2014-32-25.5-35 Vs. October 2016-38-30.5-42 if you're in my industry you know what those numbers mean and how F'ing scary that shit is. I remember having measurement days and making sure not to eat anything or even have water so that I could be the skinniest and flattest I could be. I had tricks to tuck my hips and cinch my waist to get a smaller measurement. I measured out food I ate and logged it in a food diary daily and I would make sure I didn't go over X amount of calories per day. If I did or if I binged out of hunger, I would puke that up and that made me think it was okay I didn't "actually" eat it. I would chew fruit/dessert flavoured gum just to give me a taste of something delicious since I couldn't physically eat it. I have always been the model who yo-yo's in measurements. Lose a lot of weight and be really skinny and then a few weeks/months later and I would be "big" again. I felt so ashamed and disgusted with myself. I could never understand how so many of the models around me could keep up with it and manage a stable constant measurement. I took 2 years off, unplanned. I honestly never thought I would model again, I mean I was "fat" no one would want to work with me at the size I was, I just figured it was over. All the blood, sweat, and tears I put in to that body was literally all for nothing. A short lived moment of success. Out of the blue one day as I was getting bigger and bigger I just said fuck this, I am still going to work and I refuse to starve myself to do so. I talked to my mother agent of nearly 10 years @ginnyedwardsmaxwell and we started making things happen piece by piece. Everything is still so new (I only started back up in October), but already I feel so much fucking happier with myself and my life! It's like a secret you hold onto so deeply for years and years that you finally let out and you feel so damn liberated!! No I don't ever plan on being that skinny again and to the next person who says "oh you looked so much better thin" GO FUCK YOURSELF! You have NO clue wtf I went through to be like that and how MISERABLE I was #bodypositive #effyourbeautystandards #loveyourself #standout #honormycurves